And by that, I mean all I really remember is all the horrible things that happened and how bad things have been.
But when I think about it, this year has had some good times. I've met some incredible people, some of which have impacted my life more than I ever could have imagined. So here's my list of thank you's, to people who mean a lot to me and have made the good parts of my ear pretty damn good.
Ellie- Where do I begin? My beautiful, incredible little sister. I love you more than you can ever understand. Next year, we're gonna make the most of how close we now re to each other. Let's do 2014, and let's do it right. This is gonna be our year, baby girl.
Alice- MIDDLEMISS! Freaking love you, man. My pint-sized buddy. Always there to hold my hand whenever I needed you. When they try to drag you down, when you know that you can do this, you need to keep your focus on what you must do. See you soon, lovely.
Chlobo- Sorry I kind of left you hangin this year, love. I promise I'll be better to you next year. I'll make it up to you. Let's make magic. X
Robyn- Thank you. Thank you so much. You are my big sister, my angel and one of my best friends. You've been there for me when I've needed someone most and you've never left my side. I'm gonna come see you next year. We're gonna have some fun. Always your sister.
Drew- You won't see this, and I don't really want you to. I just want to say how much I really do love and care about you, and thank you for everything you've done for me this year. From offering me a shoulder to cry on to being the one person who could pick me up at the worst of times, you have truly put a smile on my face throughout this year. I can't thank you enough, dude. I love you.
Kier- I hate you. But I don't. I love you really, you stupid oaf. Just very deep down and not in front of people.
Laurence- We've had our ups and downs this year, that's for sure. But you're still my hero. I'm sorry I let my paranoia get in the way sometimes. Next year I promise I'll be less shy. Love you.
Shane- You, sir, are brilliant. And I never shy away from telling you so and you know that. Keep being brilliant, and don't go changing for anyone, ok? Love ya.
Luke- You are by far one of the biggest nutcases I have ever met. But you're also one of the most caring, kind, funny people I've ever had the pleasure of having in my life. Love you, bro. Always remember: 'The cure for back pain is six shots of Jagermeister.' Your word is gospel.
There are so many other people I owe thanks to. To Caitlin and Milly, to Ally and Goff, to Sian and Meghan and Will and the rest of RUN and Evilyn and DEAD and Ashestoangels and Cas and a thousand others I haven't the time to name. I love all of you very much, and I hope you have a fabulous new year.
Let's make 2014 suck less. And by that, I mean have even more good times so that the bad memories just fade away into the sea of good ones.
Best wishes to you all,